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Whatever Happens, Happens.

by Elisia Song

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I'm so lost I can't even look you in the eyes I'm so down Why can't I just say goodbye It's only fair that I can't tell you off Though it's been seven years since you've hurt me so deeply Can't define what it means to be me A lifetime's worth of cuts Please hold me, Master Chief. Can't be the one to let down In my tear-stained white T-shirts I'll always watch the time fly While living in the moment Two beers to get real wasted Hung up on things that you've said Vomit on spring mattresses Wake up and say, "I'm sorry, man..."
2.
I got a feeling that tonight's a night where we stay in Get drunk and fall in love with notions of self harm repeating Tucked in to go to sleep where angry eyes won't catch me dreaming Eyes glued to a screen while swiping right to help esteems get bold I cannot forget what you said to me at 4 AM So incredible, so resilient How much can you trust me? Cuz I'm so broken Yeah, I'm so broken Don't think that I am alright I'm dying on the inside I'll fumble on a 3 speed You'll stand there watching me bleed Have trouble with connections Too scared to let anyone in Go slow or go way too fast My bones will shift in my cast
3.
At 6:30 AM, it's so hard to feel alive My temper is shortening, even though you did nothing wrong Ooh... It's so easy to let yourself go in the moment An imbalance of chemicals in my own noggin' The improper way I deal with my own emotions The cataclysmic feeling of meeting God Save yourself If not for you, then for me It's so hard to ask for help I never could speak honestly
4.
I fell in love with the girl who took My ten dollar order for coffee in the mall It made no sense for my heart to flutter But at the same time, it all felt so nice It's been a long year and no one's since mentioned How much they've been crying and shedding the tension The thought alone still makes me wonder If we're all pretending It's better than being alone 18 months of collective trauma And I kid myself by denying I need help And all my friends, they offer up their hands I mix up the signals and push away again It's easier to just say I'm broken Than return to a system that just wants me dead Cause coping mechanics form the bad habits And my Weezer poster won't subside my panics Everyday, routines don't change I'll still sit on Zoom, absorbing nothing And sulk some more and still hate my body And fall in love with girls through innocuous talking I've worn this mask for way too long I fault this pandemic, but it doesn't change the song And every second I spend in this room Leads me a step closer to my impending doom
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My body feels foreign It helps just to look away I'd mind my own business If pain didn't come in waves Loving and hurting and constantly yearning These are thoughts that make me feel so gullible "These are the good times, make way for the good times!" I can't fight the tide so I'll give in just one last time And I can't watch or hear in fear of self hate Always can't take a joke despite the clear bait My brain's been askin' for a good clockin' Be my worst person in terms of loving Shoes on the dashboard a brick on the pedal The wall is approaching, too bad I'll never Find out my demon's, they're all quite sneaky Give a faux answer, you can't see through me Never move on and never look forward Always be distant and socially awkward
6.
Lately, I've been so let down Imaginations run wild with style Do you remember when we were children? We'd play at your house all day Everything isn't real Storyline's have no clear ending If only I could change Then you'd be here with me
7.
This Halloween, I'll be sitting by myself in my old costume Time passes by as I'm watching videos of Blink-182 Look out the window, what do you see? A picture perfect moment of you and me And who knew you'd be thoughtful? I didn't message first But, it's always the same old question: "How are you this 31st? It's gotten cold and I'd put on my scarf if I didn't feel like such a jerk My soul is sold to the very first person who is willing to put in the work This Halloween, I won't feel much better in a costume No amount of booze you throw can help, too
8.
Sitting by myself, alone, in an empty room
9.
Late flight by myself A freezing cold, chilling air Touch down late at night Phone calls for a ride Can I see you? This speaks volumes Can we catch up? Or just get drunk? Are you working? Am I missing Parts of you? Can you see me anymore? But it's okay, cuz I'm in love Walking round for too long Can't explain these feelings of A sense want and belong 30 days and 30 nights Still would not be enough Pushing through to share these thoughts That I love you and I'll miss you, too Make new space for memories Walking around these city blocks Can't contain a joyful glee Finally find an inner peace Accounting for dreadful lie But all I've seen are good times Feelings show a moody air Why do I think it's such a crime? Don't wanna know how I'd feel Leaving these city blocks behind Where I look, everywhere Only reminds me that I can be happy Feeling so lonely, only caring about me Can I see you? This speaks volumes Can we catch up? Or just get drunk? Are you working? Am I missing Parts of you? Can you see me anymore?
10.
Flipping through the pages Haven't talked in ages With lines between You and me Ripping through the subway Cut across the pathways Arms sprawled out To receive And I can't tell if I want it back Back again And this is my last chance to find a break And break away I'm looking for the right time To say the things on my mind I'm caught between niceties Not a fan of goodbyes Shaking hands for next time And possibly, infinity But my knee-jerk reactions cannot save face When everyone's looking at me to explain And find a good, simple, and clean explanation To everything weighing me down and my problems Hard to let go and it's hard to move on So to cope with these feelings, I'm writing these songs And attempt introspect and reverse implications Air out these words and obtain validation through their praise
11.
Between you and me, I still have your picture as my lock screen And I'll dial your number, but I'll never call it And all your jackets, they're burning holes in the backseat of my car We knew we couldn't get very far But I still hope, someday, you'll call me.

about

"There's an emotional anniversary that comes about a week after a major event in your life. Whether it's a graciousness of moments past, an awareness of the longing attachment to a lingering sadness, or a nostalgia for a fleeting moment, the one week mark is always a guaranteed peak for emotion. It dulls with time, getting weaker and weaker until it becomes nothing but a distant memory, but for now, there's nothing wrong with letting yourself feel it out. Let these moments pass through you, and when it's gone past you, remember how it made you feel and never, ever, let that go." - the rat lord.

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"Whatever Happens, Happens." is the 6th E&PAB! studio album. A departure from the erratic, distorted sound of the older material, E&PAB! comes around to a more riffy, less distorted approach. Inspired by a more twinkly sound that can be found in some subgenres of emo, "Whatever Happens, Happens." tries to hone in a more emotional and fun sound, while not being shy to let the old influences seep in.

Elise:

A very, very special thank you to Gannon and Cole for lending their time and talents and breathing new life into these songs. I am incredibly grateful to be friends and bandmates with such amazingly dedicated and driven people. Also a very special thanks to our good long time friend and ex-band member, Aaron, who no doubt spent countless hours perfecting the mixes of these songs and being so patient and receptive of our feedback. This album would not sound as killer as it does without your specific brand of production. Thank you to all of my friends who have been so receptive to this new push in direction and lending your ears when I needed them most. And, finally, thank you to everyone who takes their time to listen to these songs that we poured our everything into. Until next time!

Gannon:

A very special thanks to Elise for writing these absolutely shredtastic tunes and giving me the opportunity to drum on them! I am also very grateful for our incredibly talented producer Aaron and the hours upon hours of hard work he put in to make each and every one of these songs sound incredible. And of course, an extra special thank you to all of you out there reading this; I hope you enjoy listening to this album as much as I do, and I look forward to making even more music with the punk-ass bitches in the years to come!

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released June 4, 2022

Music and lyrics written by Elisia & the Punk-ass Bitches!

ELISIA SONG: Guitar/Bass/Piano/Synth/Vocals
GANNON EARHART: Percussion
COLE BRUCKNER: Piano/Synth

Cameron, Nikki, Cate, and Rat for providing me takes of the voicemail stuff on "It's Nothing Personal". Thanks again, Rat, for letting me use that voicemail you sent me on "I Miss Philadelphia".

Mixed and mastered by Aaron. (@aerochicken on Instagram)

Art by my friend, Mo Kadenacy! {insta: stickndbroke}

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Elisia Song Los Angeles, California

Elisia Song is a musician from LA county. Having released her first solo album after the departure of her alt-rock band, Barcodes and Stripes in 2016, Elisia strives to find the perfect balance of story-telling and obnoxious oversharing.

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ELISIA: GUITAR/VOCALS

GANNON: DRUMS

COLE: KEYS/VOCALS

SAM: GUITAR/VOCALS

JUSTIN: BASS/VOCALS
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