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Halo 3 Skilljumps
02:36
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I'm so lost
I can't even look you in the eyes
I'm so down
Why can't I just say goodbye
It's only fair that I can't tell you off
Though it's been seven years since you've hurt me so deeply
Can't define what it means to be me
A lifetime's worth of cuts
Please hold me, Master Chief.
Can't be the one to let down
In my tear-stained white T-shirts
I'll always watch the time fly
While living in the moment
Two beers to get real wasted
Hung up on things that you've said
Vomit on spring mattresses
Wake up and say, "I'm sorry, man..."
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I got a feeling that tonight's a night where we stay in
Get drunk and fall in love with notions of self harm repeating
Tucked in to go to sleep where angry eyes won't catch me dreaming
Eyes glued to a screen while swiping right to help esteems get bold
I cannot forget what you said to me at 4 AM
So incredible, so resilient
How much can you trust me?
Cuz I'm so broken
Yeah, I'm so broken
Don't think that I am alright
I'm dying on the inside
I'll fumble on a 3 speed
You'll stand there watching me bleed
Have trouble with connections
Too scared to let anyone in
Go slow or go way too fast
My bones will shift in my cast
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You Had It In You
03:54
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At 6:30 AM, it's so hard to feel alive
My temper is shortening, even though you did nothing wrong
Ooh...
It's so easy to let yourself go in the moment
An imbalance of chemicals in my own noggin'
The improper way I deal with my own emotions
The cataclysmic feeling of meeting God
Save yourself
If not for you, then for me
It's so hard to ask for help
I never could speak honestly
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Sit On a Pizza
04:10
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I fell in love with the girl who took
My ten dollar order for coffee in the mall
It made no sense for my heart to flutter
But at the same time, it all felt so nice
It's been a long year and no one's since mentioned
How much they've been crying and shedding the tension
The thought alone still makes me wonder
If we're all pretending
It's better than being alone
18 months of collective trauma
And I kid myself by denying I need help
And all my friends, they offer up their hands
I mix up the signals and push away again
It's easier to just say I'm broken
Than return to a system that just wants me dead
Cause coping mechanics form the bad habits
And my Weezer poster won't subside my panics
Everyday, routines don't change
I'll still sit on Zoom, absorbing nothing
And sulk some more and still hate my body
And fall in love with girls through innocuous talking
I've worn this mask for way too long
I fault this pandemic, but it doesn't change the song
And every second I spend in this room
Leads me a step closer to my impending doom
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Pure Bliss
04:36
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My body feels foreign
It helps just to look away
I'd mind my own business
If pain didn't come in waves
Loving and hurting and constantly yearning
These are thoughts that make me feel so gullible
"These are the good times, make way for the good times!"
I can't fight the tide so I'll give in just one last time
And I can't watch or hear in fear of self hate
Always can't take a joke despite the clear bait
My brain's been askin' for a good clockin'
Be my worst person in terms of loving
Shoes on the dashboard a brick on the pedal
The wall is approaching, too bad I'll never
Find out my demon's, they're all quite sneaky
Give a faux answer, you can't see through me
Never move on and never look forward
Always be distant and socially awkward
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Lately, I've been so let down
Imaginations run wild with style
Do you remember when we were children?
We'd play at your house all day
Everything isn't real
Storyline's have no clear ending
If only I could change
Then you'd be here with me
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The Halloween Song
03:17
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This Halloween, I'll be sitting by myself in my old costume
Time passes by as I'm watching videos of Blink-182
Look out the window, what do you see?
A picture perfect moment of you and me
And who knew you'd be thoughtful?
I didn't message first
But, it's always the same old question:
"How are you this 31st?
It's gotten cold and I'd put on my scarf if I didn't feel like such a jerk
My soul is sold to the very first person who is willing to put in the work
This Halloween, I won't feel much better in a costume
No amount of booze you throw can help, too
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It's Nothing Personal
06:38
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Sitting by myself, alone, in an empty room
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I Miss Philadelphia
03:51
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Late flight by myself
A freezing cold, chilling air
Touch down late at night
Phone calls for a ride
Can I see you?
This speaks volumes
Can we catch up?
Or just get drunk?
Are you working?
Am I missing
Parts of you?
Can you see me anymore?
But it's okay, cuz I'm in love
Walking round for too long
Can't explain these feelings of
A sense want and belong
30 days and 30 nights
Still would not be enough
Pushing through to share these thoughts
That I love you and I'll miss you, too
Make new space for memories
Walking around these city blocks
Can't contain a joyful glee
Finally find an inner peace
Accounting for dreadful lie
But all I've seen are good times
Feelings show a moody air
Why do I think it's such a crime?
Don't wanna know how I'd feel
Leaving these city blocks behind
Where I look, everywhere
Only reminds me that I can be happy
Feeling so lonely, only caring about me
Can I see you?
This speaks volumes
Can we catch up?
Or just get drunk?
Are you working?
Am I missing
Parts of you?
Can you see me anymore?
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I Miss New York
03:50
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Flipping through the pages
Haven't talked in ages
With lines between
You and me
Ripping through the subway
Cut across the pathways
Arms sprawled out
To receive
And I can't tell if I want it back
Back again
And this is my last chance to find a break
And break away
I'm looking for the right time
To say the things on my mind
I'm caught between niceties
Not a fan of goodbyes
Shaking hands for next time
And possibly, infinity
But my knee-jerk reactions cannot save face
When everyone's looking at me to explain
And find a good, simple, and clean explanation
To everything weighing me down and my problems
Hard to let go and it's hard to move on
So to cope with these feelings, I'm writing these songs
And attempt introspect and reverse implications
Air out these words and obtain validation through their praise
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Between you and me, I still have your picture as my lock screen
And I'll dial your number, but I'll never call it
And all your jackets, they're burning holes in the backseat of my car
We knew we couldn't get very far
But I still hope, someday, you'll call me.
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Elisia Song Los Angeles, California
Elisia Song is a musician from LA county. Having released her first solo album after the departure of her alt-rock band,
Barcodes and Stripes in 2016, Elisia strives to find the perfect balance of story-telling and obnoxious oversharing.
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