Paint me misguided cause I'm so delicate yet so stubborn
In the right mind and at the wrong times
Speeding down the 10 to get you in time cause I'm late
And ignoring what you say, cause my driving's fine

And I'm here! With food!
And is it cool if I crash here tonight?

3 topping pizzas, as much as we can afford
Diet's won't really save us, we'll eat 'til we're bored
Chase it all down with booze your mom scored for us
We'll have a good night 'till we're all dead
Or tired enough to go to bed

But we'll smoke 'till the dawn goes by right over all our heads
Then laugh at some joke that Brooke will say, ignore the pain
Dealing with myself for 5 years
Blame it all on these trashed bottles of beer

Say I'm excited cause I acknowledge that I've got some
Feelings to work though and not put on you
It's a four step plan that I have got to see through
Cause I'm feeling exhausted from feeling nothing

And I'm over letting it control me
And I'm over letting it all die

Cause I'm done creating problems
And I'll stop running away
Just as soon as I can smile and hear myself say
"It's okay to cry, just let it out! It's okay to feel shame and beat down.
Just promise you won't die!"

Because I can't contain the words in my head
And they still burn, they still burn
And it's fucked to think that I'll never grow
Out of this, your one trick
And I'll never see the day where you disappear
You're still there, you're still there

But I'm still fucking desperate for any little thing that shows love.