Hearing the rain fall in the afternoons
I couldn’t believe how much I hated myself for
Letting you walk away without my two cents
And now I can’t hold down a shitty temp job
Can’t afford to take this one shot
Of whatever concoction this bar whipped up

And now I’m drunk again
With no one else to befriend

Now with my car broken down I’ve got to walk
3 miles to get a fuckin’ bottle of vodka
Walking up a set of broken stairs
Stumbling my way to nowhere

I’m not naive, I’m just a fucking dumbass
I forgot I can’t read social cues
I come up empty-handed with nothing to say
Still like to handle things my own way

And I know I shouldn’t believe
I can’t do anything that’s useful to my life and those around me
But I can’t shake off the feeling that no one cares
It’s a 20 minute walk to get validation
Ease my mind for an hour of vacation
Yet I always regret sitting down on your front steps

I sort of miss the days where you were around
As an emotional safe net, it’s so hard rely on
Myself for once, how hard can that be?
Well, it must not be easy cause I’m downing bottles
Left and right. I need professional help
Dealing everything I’ve got on my mind

Now I can’t be sure
I can take care of myself and for what it’s worth
I really don’t think I should be alone for now
And all around it hurts
To think that I’ve had some hand to play in this game
In making you leave for good

But I shouldn’t believe
I can’t do anything that’s useful to my life and those around me
But I can’t shake off the feeling that no one cares
It’s a 20 minute walk to get validation
Ease my mind for an hour of vacation
Yet I always regret sitting down on your front steps